Well it’s dark out and we’re on our way to the hospital. So scared and excited and scared. And excited.
Hubs made us late this am, but at least it’s taking my mind off the things I don’t want to think of. (THE NEEDLE)
Last night I was quite sad leaving my little boy at Grandma’s house. I was sad to not hug and hold him for days or pick him up for weeks. I was sad for the attention he will miss.
But today I am growing excited further for the love he will gain. The little sister he will have and the amazing big brother he will be.
It’s crazy the emotions that are running through my head. Thank God for God. I have no idea how anyone would get through this on their own strength. God will be with me any little girl. He will help me to be still for the needle.
And lastly God will help me to not focus on the fact that still was automatically changed to stillborn in that last sentence.
Thank you God for being with me, holding my hand and being in charge.