I want it all

I came across a quick discussion point on Babble, “THE MOMMY WARS REVISITED: WHY DOES ANYBODY CARE WHETHER WE WORK OR STAY AT HOME?” The point of this article was to get some feedback, cause people to think. But for me, it just points out how much more that I want it all. I don’t want to be “just” a stay at home mom, and I don’t want to be a working mom. Right now I have a sort of hybrid situation. I work from home 2 days a week and go into the office 3 days. Childcare is all over the place. Now that I am heading back from to work on Tuesday, thus ending my maternity leave, it’s getting even more complicated.

Mondays – 2 kids to daycare

Tuesdays (work from home) – Big Brother to Bible School with Grandma in the am, home in the afternoon. Little Sister home all day.

Wednesdays – Big Brother to Grandma’s house, Little Sister to daycare

Thursdays – Big Brother to daycare, Little Sister to Grandma’s house.

Fridays (work from home) – 2 kids home

It’s a lot. I know we are truly blessed to be able to give our children a little bit of every scenario, but to be honest… it’s exhausting. Some days I just want to stay home, and others go to work… but mostly, I want it all. I want to be able to stay home with my kids (sans working) and still go to work, see adults and contribute to the household financially. My jewelry making business seems to be taking shape, but I’m not really sure how to get it started, not to mention my salary is half of our income… so where would that leave us. Parenting is a tough road to walk, no matter how you do it.

Can you really have it all?